Nothing new has happened to me lately. Everything is about the same. I guess I feel slightly better since taking Deprenyl and 5-HT, but nothing to be excited about. I feel so lonely and there is no one that I can talk to, and no one that I feel like talking to. I wouldn't know what to say if I had someone to talk to. Sigh.

I upped my deprenyl today to 15mg.

I've been on Deprenyl for 2 days. I guess I feel a little better. I've been on 5-HT for a little bit longer than that, I think it makes me sleep a little better and helps with the depression maybe. Shrug. I don't feel as bad as I have been. I kind of don't want to feel better. Sigh. I don't know.

It snowed some today, but it all melted. It's overcast and gray. It's nice.

I don't feel like writing anything really, so I think this will probably be my last post for a while. At least until I feel like I have something worth writing about.

It's been more than a year since I've been here. I feel pretty much the same, maybe worse. I feel like I can't make it another year, but I guess I'll find out. I haven't done any 'tram in 2 days now (counting today). Yay. I feel like shit. I ache all over and my muscles are all tensed up. It seems like I'm crying every day uncontrollably. I'm not taking any medications and not seeing any Dr.'s, because I don't care anymore. I'll get through it even if it takes months or years.

I miss everyone. It doesn't feel like a year.