My life, is falling apart, and I don't care.

elliot smith, powder, a cd case with the name letting off the happiness, and tears

I am a slave.

plecosaur: promises when you are locked underground and the only light you see are of free people are hard to keep
plecosaur: you know you are a slave. you know are are the least in society, the shuned the worst of any kind of person
plecosaur: slave to depression. to anxiety. to life.
plecosaur: the pain someone with mental illnss suffers is like whip scars on your back, scabbed, half-healing and each time you make it out into the daylight you get whipped again, for not understanding, for making mistakes, but most of all for being yourself. You bleed, you can't even cry anymore, just silent tears you are shoved into your hole to to live out your life as a slave, rejected and refused and spit upon by those that walk by each day refusing to care or even understand.

I'm left and losing, behind and closing.

17:51:19 plecosaur: time is running out, i'm sitting on at the bus stop, watching busses go buy, but none of them are right for me. and when, oh when, will the right one arrive and take me where i want to be
17:52:18 tea42 to plecosaur: You just have to get on one and ride
17:53:23 plecosaur: but see i'm scared. where might it take me, and will it wreck again and lead me down another path of depression and suicide? how do i know which one is right and which one can i take a chance on?

Pokemon? No.

"Mental illness is not pokemon."
-Me in chat

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I saw "TylerDurden" on Crazy Meds yesterday.

The first rule of Crazy Talk is - you do not talk about Crazy Talk. The second rule of Crazy Talk is - you DO NOT talk about Crazy Talk. Third rule of Crazy Talk, someone yells "I'm normal!", goes psychotic, or commits suicide, the talk is over. Fourth rule, only two crazies a talk. Fifth rule, one talk at a time, fellas. Sixth rule, take medication, wear pajamas. Seventh rule, talks will go on as long as they have to. And the eighth and final rule, if this is your first night at Crazy Talk, you have to talk.