Biting my tongue.

I am in withdrawal from chat. I am worried about a couple of people that I've met from there. I just want to make sure they are okay. I feel like it gives me a bit of purpose to help out a few people, and I get to meet some very wonderful people along the way. Made a good friend last night that I'm worrying about, but I'm a natural worrier. The other person I'm worrying about I haven't heard from in 2 days I think, and she's going through heroin withdrawal. I tried to give her as good advice as I could and told her to email me, but she hasn't. I hope she isn't in the hospital. It's hard to make my mind not worry. It's what I do. I either feel bad or I worry. A few rare times I feel happy. It's weird when I am crying and then I feel happy for a few minutes, and then I cry because someone's words touch me, but I'm still smiling. It's what I call mixed head and confused body syndrome.

I want chat to be up just so I can see if my new friend comes online, and the other friend I've been worried about.

It's been my focal point for these past couple of weeks and now I feel lost and without a purpose. What do I fill this empty time up with? I don't want to fill it with more tears, they flow often enough, but I don't know what else to do.