I feel like shit. I can't get off tramadol no matter how hard I try. I want to start shooting up but I'm not letting myself get deeper into this than I already am. I'm already mixing tram and soma like I used to and I'm on it almost every day. I want to cry because of myself. I have all these needles but nothing to put in them, thankfully. *cries*

Something is cold and blank behind her smile
She's standing on an overpass
In her miracle mile
[coma:]
"You were from a perfect world
A world that threw me away today
Today to run away"

A pill to make you numb
A pill to make you dumb
A pill to make you anybody else
But all the drugs in this world
Won't save her from herself

Her mouth was an empty cut
And she was waiting to fall
Just bleeding like a polaroid that
Lost all her dolls
[coma:]
"You were from a perfect world
A world that threw me away today
Today to run away"

A pill to make you numb
A pill to make you dumb

-Marilyn Manson, Coma White