I've been so anxious lately, it's really starting to scare me. It's feeling like how I used to feel when I lived here a long time ago, always in constant fear.
My antianxiety meds aren't working either. I just took 38 pills, when 1 used to work just fine, and so far I don't feel any different. This really sucks. I'm going to have to stop taking them for at least a month, probably more like 6 months before they will do anything for me again.

I don't know how I can survive that long. I'm not used to feeling like this and I cannot deal with it.

I just want to break down and cry.