I feel tired. I guess it's been 2 days since I took anything. I'm still out of it. Sunday, I was crazy, taking a whole packet Ultram. The only good thing out of all of it, is that I've gone two days without it now, because I don't feel great.

I feel like I'm getting really depressed again. I took too much Deprenyl that I slept most of the day away, which is what happens when I do that. It's hard to see much point in anything. I'm cheating myself of time, experiencing a little slow death every day. It's hard to care when I can't redact those memories that mean something to me. The same memories that make me resigned now.

Today I got my little fishies delivered. They are really small. I wonder if I should get a smaller tank to put them in until they are larger. I'm worried that I won't be able to get them to eat anything. They mostly just hide and don't really come out to eat any food. I leave sinking food in there for them and I'm hoping they eat some of it while I'm not around.