morning mad[sad]ness

woke up to a storm this morning. the nightmares i've been having have been so real, i thought it was just my heart aching and stomach rumbling. took a walk outside to see what my body was telling me, but it's all thunder and lightning, and i couldn't tell if i was crying apart from the rain; i get so mixed up when i'm being pulled apart. shivering, and cold, shirt all well like you had me crying all night, maybe i was. it's so hard to tell when i wake up each morning, what was part of the nightmare and what was part of the dream i wanted.