I'm writing you this letter so you know that I'm not okay. I'm trying hard to fake it, but the tears keep coming and I can't wipe them away fast enough. I have a therapist meeting in an hour where I get to discuss bullshit and pretend again and smile and act happy. Then I come and and crawl into bed and cover myself up in the darkness, and let loose, and let the tears flow again. I don't know how to feel whole again and I don't know how to feel again, but don't worry, I'll smile when it's needed and I'll wipe the tears away so no one notices and I'll be just fine, because no one really wants to know how I really feel inside. Inside I feel torn and ripped apart, and confused and I don't know how to switch up what is left of me, because I gave so much away.
Well I'll go on and fake it, and pretend that it's all okay. So there's my letter letting you know it's all okay. I'm doing fine.
Tuesday, January 18
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Look to whatever her name is.. he's mine. and until he officially decides what he wants to do with that fact(keep me or drop me) then he's going to stay that way. (mine) so until we figure out what is going on between us.. you can back off. (the girl not allen)Allen this is to you.. i dont believe we've made a real decision.. you did what you had to do ... and i just jumped to conclusions.. and i'm sorry for that.. but i've got to go.. so yeah take that and do with you want with that information.
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