Musings to Kitten.

I feel a sense of spirituality, and I know we talked briefly about this in chat, but I don't really know what to do with this ethereal quality that I can sense and I believe in. I think everyone in spiritual to their own degree, perhaps like a cloud of sensations or thoughts surrounding that person, invisible or visible to that person depending on whether they acknowledge it and how they choose to interpret and follow it - whether it be through organized religion, paganist beliefs, or some ecclectic mixture of physical and spiritual like sufism, hinduism, or buddism.
I don't know what to do with my spirituality. It is there. But it isn't actively acknowledged or used in any kind of way. I consider myself agnostic at this moment. I don't believe that any organized religion is the path to feed my soul if you will, nor to I believe in other systems I have looked at it. I think it's just a part of me that is divine karma that feeds off my good and bad will towards others and develops as it's own child and has it's own life and can influence you in turn. Perhaps spirituality is a kind of feedback loop that lives off life, and we live off spirituality? I do not know, and I doubt I'll ever know. It's been a long time since I've thought about religious questions like these, and I still don't know how to answer them, other than to say I believe people are inherently spiritual and it is a part of being human - it's up to the individual to acknowledge their other side and what to do with it, if anything. This ethereal other side of us, takes form as our beliefs take form, it can be God, it can be nature, it can be science, or it can be anything. To me it's a whirling storm of emotions, sometimes silent, but sometimes it demands my attention and love.