I'm grey, talking to sunshine, but wanting navy.

[09:43] ***: well, from what you say, it all seems to be giving you at least a little improvement
[09:44] Lent Somnolence: it seems so. but i am crashing now
[09:44] Lent Somnolence: like i always do... today, and maybe 2 - 4 days. it's been steadily down
[09:44] Lent Somnolence: today cried twice and couldn't stop, that's when i know it's bad again
[09:45] ***: *hug* i'm sorry
[09:45] Lent Somnolence: its ok. i'm trying to just. i don't know. i'll wake up tomorrow and see what i do with myself
[09:46] Lent Somnolence: i'm sick of drugging and i don't do that much compared to how i used to
[09:46] Lent Somnolence: and it's sick to think of what i think is a little bit now
[09:47] Lent Somnolence: typical fucking day if it's good i won't take anything extra. but if i'm falling i'll be on 3 times as much adderall, and taking klonopin in huge doses, and in the evening drinking or snorting ambien every 30 minutes to keep me smiling
[09:47] Lent Somnolence: i call that little
[09:47] Lent Somnolence: cause it isn't fucking opiates anymore
[09:48] Lent Somnolence: and all i want is a dream to spend with you for a little while and abuse myself. i'm wrong, inside.