I'm sorry.

[10:25] Lent Somnolence: i can't find a fucking band that can consistently make me ache and do those tears that have me vocally moaning
[10:25] Lent Somnolence: where's the symphony, i have my instrument, the little drummer boy
[10:26] Lent Somnolence: i listen to all the bands on music.download.com, all the emo, all the indie. anything i think might be sad, but nothing has touched my heart right
[10:27] Lent Somnolence: a few brushes, gentle, like a bird's feather, a tickle that i'm not sure of. but where is that hard tug, that pulling, that really makes my heart feel empty, it's so clenched, between the vocals and the words, held tight, waiting for the chorus to give me a heart attack of tears


I want to die. I am suicidal again. I want to die from a heart attack of tears, it's how I'm feeling inside, so tight, and crying with no control. Please, heart, burst, and spill this red hurt everywhere. Stop poisoning me with tears, love.