I'll take two please

So, there is this person I have known for a while, named Jade. She has been enjoying the new experiences of anal sex with her boyfriend Alex. Her recent conversations with me are mostly on the topic of how bad she wants to have both holes filled. I can sympathize, as if I had holes, I would like them filled. And I like anal, and getting it feels really great.
Her boyfriend (well she doesn't call him that), he's a long distance fuck partner with an obscene amount of money that flies out to see her every two week, doesn't like the idea of me being involved at all. Not that I can blame him too much. Most guys are homophobic and wouldn't want to be involved in that kind of scene anyway, no matter how much it turns them on watching porn and thinking about it. Double standard for double penetration, eh?
Either way, I'm not cool enough for casual sex and it's something that I don't think I would be into. Or even sex often with friends. I think sex with friends is great, when you both need it, but to use friendship as an excuse to have a fuck buddy can lead to bad things. Sex always leads to bad things, anyway. It's addictive, gives you a rush almost as good as heroin in the vein, and you want more and more, and then there is the associated jealously that inevitably begins with such a fun activity. You want it. You want it all to yourself. You don't want to share.
I know some people think they can share, or can suppress their emotions enough to seem like they are noble and open to everything, but I think it's kind of bullshit. I don't know how they have the mental control to do that, and I don't know what is going on in their minds. Somehow some people manage, and I've met a few through friends now I guess and they live that lifestyle seemingly well, but I can't understand it.
Jealousy has always played a big part in my life. It's the feeling that won't go away and it's the feeling that can turn me into a mean and spiteful person. Maybe I just need to fuck around more and then jealousy problems wouldn't ever crop up, but I don't think that would happen either. I would just become attached to every single person I was having sex with and that certainly isn't a good idea.