I'm starting to feel a little better than I have been I think. Tomorrow, I might, maybe, bump my effexor xr dose up another 75mg. I'll decide then. The problem is I won't have any Monday, but I have my appointment then too, but I take it in the morning, but I guess I can take it in the evening and it won't matter very much. This anhedonic way of living just is draining me of any feeling. I can't get excited about anything it feels like. The stuff I care about I just let rot and don't work on. It's been like this since I've been depressed and I hate it. I want to have some motivation to actually do something. So I actually start doing stuff. So I really work out. So I really finish setting the fish tank up. So I really get a life. I hate feeling nothing.