Surprise (Really)

Tonight I couldn't sleep for a change. I am very tired, my legs kept jerking around so finally I took the klonopin I'm prescribed and two xanax. That was well over 4 hours ago. I've pretty much spent the last 5 hours in bed trying desperately to sleep. It's hard to keep my eyes open. I keep yawning. But sleep won't come. I guess this is in a way, what I sort of wanted, but not exactly how I wanted it accomplished. I didn't want to have anymore dreams. Sigh. On the bright side I don't feel sick. I set my alarm for noon to get up and take all my morning pills and then go back to bed if I can (I'm usually asleep by 7am at least), and I set my alarm from 8am-12pm to at least take my stimulant during the day hours and all the morning vitamins I'm supposed to take only during the day so I'm not restless during the night. Heh. Except I'm restless, just like the old days, around two weeks ago. I don't know what I hate more. Oh well. I guess I'll browse the fishboards or something stupid for 15 or so minutes and then take a hot shower. 5am is when my mom wakes up so maybe I'll have breakfast. I have no appetite though so probably not. I'm not losing any fucking weight either. Sigh.