"Bleed Black"

I feel so, out of it. At times lately I'm so full of energy and happy as I can be, euphoric. It's nice. Other times I just don't want to get out of bed. It has to be one of the medications I'm on, but neither are supposed to activate mania, and I've never been diagnosed as manic-depressive. I don't know what's going on with myself and I wish I would stay stable. Right now, I'm feeling a little down, but I'm also being very productive. I'm working on those 600 or so CD's that I'm trying to burn to my computer and then hopefully write down a list of those. After that, I'm going to copy several (hundred) of them for 3 or so people that want the ones I have. Maybe even more people than that, I have no idea really. I know I should burn some for Stacie, Nicole and Jen.
I'm beginning to feel a manic episode come on, which, I believe, is because I just took my second dose of Strattera for the evening. I'm going to listen to what my original doctor told me to take and not the one substituting for him. I can tweak the dosage next week when he gets back, or in two weeks. My memory is really horrible now with all the benzodiazapines I am on, but we'll figure things out together whenever we meet up again.

I am exploring the inside, I find it desolate
I do implore these confines, now, as they penetrate, "recreate
me"
I'm hovering throughout time, I crumble in these days
I crumble, I cannot, I cannot find reflection in these days