I think my depression is slowly starting to ease up on this new medication. I still have 2 more nights before I get to increase it to 100mg, and I stay on that amount until I see the psychiatrist again and see how it's working. I'll probably end up adding some Paxil CR to it too. I want to ask her if she'll increase my Klonopin dosage to 1mg twice daily, but she probably won't, so I'll try out Neurontin. It costs probably $200 a month, but I don't care. If I have to continue to be in therapy just to live here for free, then they can continue to pay very expensive medication costs.

I talked to Chris for quite a while last night. It's only the second night of talking to each other, but for whatever reason it's really easy to talk to her, and she makes me feel better without me realizing it. I think it's sort of obvious that we might both like each other, but I don't want to say anything, especially after only 2 days. It feels very Jenish, in regards to how I feel inside and how I'm treating the situation (not saying anything about my current feelings, but being fairly obvious, etc.), which I'm sort of resentful of as it makes me remember things that I just need to forget. At the same time it also feels good. Sigh.