Cassy asked me out tonight to hang out and probably spend the night together. She said she was lonely and wanted someone to keep her busy and dropped some not so subtle notes at wanted to get fucked up with me on drugs and have sex. I made some excuse for why I couldn't go. Sigh. I feel bad, since she is lonely, and I'm lonely too. I just don't want to spend time with someone that way, when we're both lonely. Things will end up happening and I don't want anything to happen. I feel lonely as hell. Today was miserable and I spent most of it in bed. Tomorrow will probably suck, but maybe I'll do some ultram or whatever to make it easier to deal with. Sigh.

I want someone to talk to on the phone right now, for hours. Everyone is asleep now though.

Cry.