Today is a sucky day. Erin wrote back to me a little and said she will send a postcard, but seemed very busy. I should of asked for her phone # and what the time difference is so I could drop her a note. I guess she's probably going to the american consulate college? or whatever there, for 2 years, or however long she is going to be there before moving to the caribbean or possibly back to Texas, who knows. I thought for sure she wasn't going to Saudi Arabia, but I guess she changed her mind. Her life was going really bad, lots of drugs, lots of guys doing things to her that I want to kill all those guys; so I guess moving for a couple years is a good thing. It'll get here away from the drugs (hopefully), and she can start up college and stuff and I know she likes different cultures so I'm sure she'll enjoy her time in Bahrain. Saudi Arabia is a fun place. Sand, sand, sand, and neat arabic words (they are just so pretty when written), and it feels like. It's undescribable. It's a strange but good experience to be submerged into that culture, and you definately learn a lot because they are so different on the outside, but inside they are pretty much the same as everyone.

I wish I had someone to talk to on the phone or online even. Bri is resting according to her father. Sigh. Don't know where Jen is, but she's probably at a party or doing something, but it'd be nice to chat.
I worked out a little today even though my depression isn't much better. The first few days on Effexor XR I was pretty happy, but now it's flattened out a lot. Only 2 more days until I increase the dose at least, and that should make a difference.

Tomorrow I'm going to try to make it to Borders if I can and pick up some books, some cds (umm. The Faint, Rilo Kely, and check to see if they have more Azure Ray, and check yet again to see if they have the only Rasputina CD I'm missing), and maybe a few dvds. I want to watch Hamlet again as it's such a good movie and it suits my mood right now. Don't know what other DVD I might get if I get some DVDs. Maybe I'll pick up some of Shakespeare's tragedies, I want a hard copy of them, reading them online isn't in anyway fun or enjoyable. I can only read while laying in bed, well read and be comfortable I mean.

Sigh. I'm lonely.
No one will hug me.