I slept poorly falling asleep around 6am. I finally gave up trying a little after 2 and listen to Cat Power & The Faint while reading one of the books I got, Perido Station, or whatever it's called. It's pretty good. I feel like crap today. My neck is very stiff and I just woke up. No one is online either and I want to talk to someone. I cried for a few hours last night. I don't know what is the matter and why I feel bad. I think I will do drugs today, just to head off feeling bad. Or get drunk, or something, but getting drunk only lasts for a few hours. Or I might cut, but it doesn't feel like the right thing. I guess I'll take a shower now.