I feel like shit, and I felt like shit last night. Wrote Stefany an email saying I felt bad and I hope she has a good time today, but I think I'm going to stay in bed and I'm sorry if I'm not online. Like I have the willpower to stay away from her. I just wish she paid more attention to me. She fell asleep last night and it's not like she promised to say something to me before she went to bed, but I still wanted/expected her to. I feel so empty and she is the only person that can fill me up, but I don't get enough of her that I'm always left feeling empty and wanting more. I don't know what's better, to be completely alone, or to have someone and not have enough of them.