I was able to get in some sleep finally today. A few short, very restless naps, filled with lots of nightmares I think. I can't remember anything, but I know I tossed and turned a lot more than usual. Maybe something is on my mind and I just don't know what it is.
Little sister came over for a while and I visited with her for a while and borrowed a lot of her CDs. I actually ran out of blank CDs burning copies, and I spent money on new blanks when I don't even have the money for it. I'm stupid. Music makes me happy I guess, drugs just keep me alive.
I'm getting depressed again thinking about it.
I don't know what to think about.
I don't know what to do.
I don't know.
I meant to write a really good entry, because I started feeling good, but now I feel kind of like nothing. What's wrong with my feelings and emotions? I wish I knew.

Allen