I feel a lot better today. I got to talk to Stefany last night for a while and on the phone for some too. She said the email I sent was okay and that made me feel confortable, because I didn't know if I was crossing the line, but I guess I didn't. I like her. I want her. I'm just always so scared and confused as to how far of a friend she wants me to be. I don't know what to do when I have a feeling that I think crosses the line (something I haven't said before that is further than other things I've wanted to do). I just keep it inside now. I wish I didn't have to, but it's safer for me this way I guess. And I don't want to ruin our friendship. There is plenty to figure out and discover online, I just wish it was all figured out online so I knew what my place was there and what was expected and _wanted_ from me.