I'm so happy. Last night I was talking to Stefany. And kind out of nowhere she said I hope I don't try to rape you. I was a little shocked, but I liked it, and I told her it'd be okay. And she said really? And I said I gave myself to you, I'm your property. And that made her really happy. Then we talked more about our feelings, about how I love her (she doesn't respond in kind, but I understand, as long as I'm allowed to feel what I feel - and it seems to be okay with her), and how she wants me and how I want her and have wanted her, but I've just been scared to say anything about it. So everything is really good to get all those feelings out in the open and not have to hold things back, like I was for a while.
Stefany is just so good and kind and caring and forgiving about everything. I don't know how I stumbled upon a person so good, who just happened to like me too. I don't know how things like this happen to me. I don't deserve it. But I want her and love her.
I miss her.