I forgot to mention that on new year's eve I talked to Lauren on the phone. It was kind of strange and she kept telling me to be happy, as I sound pretty unhappy on the phone I guess. Be happy. Etc, etc. I kept telling her I'm not a pity whore on purpose and stuff, I think she at least believes that now. I also heard Lisa in the background and stuff, they wanted to put me on speakerphone but I was like, "Noooo I'm scared of that.", and Lauren had to explain that I'm scared of everything to her, which she doesn't really get, and which Lauren doesn't really get either, but oh well. Online we also argued about whether or not I sent her a handmade card, and I kept saying I didn't and she kept saying I did. I don't know! I can't remember if I made a card for her, which is the really awful part. I believe her, since she has no reason to deceive me, but it's still weird that I cannot recall it at all.