So, today was shit. I slept 11 hours and didn't do anything, didn't do any community service. My mother woke me up several times. My dad came up and woke me up and I wanted to scream fuck off. I just want to be left alone. I don't want anyone to tell me what to do. I don't want anyone to tell me how my life should be. I don't want anyone trying to control me. I hate him. I'm so paranoid now because he bothered me, and nothing has calmed me down all day. I'm being as quiet as I can and staying up here by myself so I can pretend think that he's not home or that he doesn't know I'm home, which is really stupid logic, as I never go anywhere.

Tomorrow I'm trying hard to go do my 3 hours of work, but I want to have my mom drop me off instead of my dad so I don't have to deal with him. I'm so nervous and paranoid. I can't stop shaking.

I hate this.