I'm very lonely tonight. It'll be 6am soon. I might just fuck the library, take my speed at 8am and see if I can go to sleep yet even though I'm on speed.
Something really surprising happened and it made me very happy. I wrote to Maegan like an hour ago saying how much I missed her and how she's the sweetest person I've ever met in this state. She wrote back like an hour later, a short email because she was getting ready for work & school. It must suck to have to get up so early. She said she'll try to email me later tonight if she feels okay, she's sick again, but she always seems sick when I see her. I hope she's doing okay, at least she seems to be from the small words I got from. God I miss her. I want to touch her hands and run my fingers across hers and caress her hands and just give her a big hug and rest my head on her shoulder and smell her perfume and the smell of her hair. Feel the hair her thick hair feels against my hair and how it runs through my fingers. I don't care if she has a bf. I'm going to make out with her if I get the chance again. Sigh. That's horrible of me. I won't do it. I wish I had the chance now. Maybe she is single now and we could have some fun. She's very nice. Too nice to me, and the smile of hers, just makes any sad feelings disappear from my face.