Well, it's Monday. I have my community service in about, lets see, 1hr 45 minutes. I'm very nervous, and just took half a xanax to help that and I'll take another half or a whole, probably a whole one before I leave and hope that I'm there less than 4 hours. I can't remember being this anxious, the last time was the day when I had to go to court and that was pretty bad, I had to take like 5 or 6 or more xanax before I could calm down. I hope that the training is okay. I'm scared. Ugh.

Last night was good. I hope I didn't scare Brianna away. I talk too much sometimes and can't stop. I hate it. It makes me feel stupid. Oh well. I wish she was online right now. I made a mistake and thought I had to go to the library at 5, but I looked at the piece of paper that I had written on and it says 6pm, so I have an extra hour and just might see her online before I leave and that will be good. It will calm me down some and I want to know if her day went okay.