The arraignment today wasn't very fun. It lasted 4 hours about. Basically what happened was I sat in the courtroom for a long time until the DA called me out and then I got to plea bargain my thing down. The original ticket was reckless driving and leaving the scene of an accident, which I pled guilty to the the reckless driving and bargained the leaving the scene of an accident which was a 12 point ticket (I would of lost my license) down to obstuction of goverment justice, a 3rd degree misdemeaner and I am on 12 month unsupervised probation and I have to finish 24 hours of community service by the end of Jan. I'm pretty worried about the community service as I can't deal with people. I am also worried about driving again. If I get in any kind of trouble during my probation things will be fucked. So I have to be really careful. I don't even want to drive anymore because I'm scared of getting in an accident and then things will be really bad. I don't know what to do. I just kind of want to crawl away and die. Tomorrow I need to call places and find some community service things that I can get done. Sigh. I don't know what to do. One place I can call that the guy gave me is the public library, so I hope they have some hours for me as I think that would be the easiest thing for me to do.

Life sucks. I'm going to get very fucked up tonight. I wish I had more stuff to get fucked up on other than ultram. I need more.