Today was the last day of therapy and the last time I see my current psychiatrist. No new medication changes other than changing the imipramine to amitryptaline, which I think I will get filled as my sleep sucks and if it helps then I'll ask my current Dr. to put me on it too. There are just a few more days lefting of being on paxil cr, before I start tapering down the imipramine, which will take a week or two until and then I'll just be on lexapro. I will have to ask the Dr. to double the dose of the lexapro, but I really haven't had any side effects at all from it which is great. Not like the paxil which gave me a ton of side effects and the imipramine which gave me some god awful dry mouth. I guess it stops your salivary glands from working, and you have dry mouth all day long. Waking up is one of the worst things because your mouth is so yucky from no salivia.

I want to see my new Dr. now and get something for my sleep. I have to wait until the 23rd. Sigh.

Tomorrow is court day and I'm pretty nervous. So far I've confused an extra two klonoping (1mg each), and I just swallowed 1 mg of xanax, but I still don't feel that relaxed. I think I'm going to be taking much more before tonight is over and I will be taking a lot in the morning.
I'm really worried about what will happen. I don't want to lose my license. Cry. I think that would send my depression spiralling even more downward, and I don't want that to happen. I don't want to start doing the really bad stuff again. Sigh.