Well, I've shown amazing constraint in following what I should be doing and not talking to people that will make me feel worse. Then again, this amazing restraint might just only be like that because I've taken 2 xanax within the past 30 minutes. I feel relaxed and not quite as bored, but I still feel. Blah. Like nothing matters. I don't care, no one cares, nothing matters. It's all blah. Sigh.