A friend came online last night. I hadn't seen her in a week. I was really worried what had happened, and I guess the worrying was called for. Another of my friends tried to commit suicide, but thankfully they weren't successfull. I don't know what would of happened to me if I would of never heard from her again. I would of waited a few weeks and called her number and probably got her mom and would of had to have the whole thing explained to me by her. Then I would break down. Like when I found out my online friend, Tysha Neese, died from an overdose. They never determined if it was accidental or on purpose. They just found her lying next to the computer, like she had just gotten up and was going somewhere, but collapsed. They ruled it accidental as there was no note, or motive (in their eyes). But I know how she was depressed, even though she put up a big act about it. She had just seen one of her exbf's like a week ago and fucked around with him, which I'm sure made her more depressed. I know she called me the next day to talk about it, but she was happy on the phone. Either way, I'll never forget you Ty. Your passing really took a lot out of me and made me realize how much friends mean to me. That's why I get so scared when I don't see someone for a few days. I'm scared that they are gone. Gone forever and I won't ever be able to contact them. It makes me so scared to think about losing someone. I don't want to lose anyone. I don't want to lose my friend that I have now. She's one of the nicest and sweetest and most forgiving people I know.