I got back from the therapist. I was actually able to tell her some things instead of just talking about nothing, which was kind of good in a way. I guess I'm getting a little more comfortable around her, even though I don't think it'll help in the long run. I don't believe cognitive therapy helps at all for me, at least not with a benzodiazapine to drown out the anxiety in my head so I can actually focus on what I'm supposed to do and gradualy work up to harder things. Without the benzo it's just exposing me to progressively harder and harder situations, while each time knocks my confidence level down one more notch. Anyway. I was able to get her to call my psychiatrist on the phone and she doubled my dose of Paxil CR 2 weeks earlier than she had planned, which is good and what I wanted to happen. She didn't prescribe anything for the sleep, probably because she wanted to have another full interview before doing that, but even some trazadone which she had already given me in the past would of been welcome. I really miss having a good night of sleep without bad dreams.

Anyway, I just took another 12.5mg pill of Paxil, so this will mark my first day on 25mgs. Lets see how it goes these next two weeks and hope I don't need to increase it to 37.5mg.