Sigh. I tried to talk to my exgf tonight, but she didn't want to talk. She was polite to me, which made me feel a lot better than I would of otherwise. She doesn't want to talk to me every day, but maybe? once in a while. I don't know though. I won't let myself message her saying anything, as the last thing I want to do is be a bother after all that I've been and done. I guess I really should just take her off my list so I don't think about it, but I don't have the will to right now, but I know I will in a few days or a week, or whenever. I hope.

On another note, I'm connected to more than 12,000 people on Friendster now. I don't really know what happened as I was only connected to 28 people before. I think it's kind of a strange experiment, but I don't think anyone will contact me from there. I'll be really surprised if they do.

I still can't fall asleep. I swallowed a ton of valerian and passion flower, you'd think I'd be at least a little tired, but I'm not. Sigh. At least the side effects from the Paxil seem to be going away for the most part, except the insomnia I have. I have a little bit of dry mouth too I suppose, but that's not a big deal.