I'm bored. So I'm counting how many people I have on my buddy lists. I have 45 people between AIM, Yahoo, and MSN, with 33 of them being on AIM. Of those, I currently have 8 people blocked, 7 on AIM and one on MSN. I just cleaned out my buddy lists a while ago too. I wonder how many of these people I actually talk to on a regular basis. I think the thought depresses me. It's maybe 5, but that's being pretty generous.

Well tomorrow is the fun dentist at 8am, and then therapy later on in the day. I feel exhausted and tired, but I know I won't be getting much sleep tonight, no matter how hard I try. At therapy, I need to make sure I talk a lot about how I haven't been able to sleep and that my anxiety is horrible at night. Hopefully she can talk to the shrink and get her to prescribe me something, as I really can't wait a whole 2 more weeks to see her. I'm sick of the lack of progress when it comes to my depression. I don't expect my anxiety to get any better as she won't prescribe anything stronger, so my hopes were dashed from the beginning regarding that. But I always thought my depression would of gotten better by now. It's hardly better. When I first saw her, my life on the 1 to 10 scale with 1 being the worst, was a 2. Now I'd rank it perhaps a 2.5.