I just want someone to hold me when I'm lonely and depressed. That's why I sleep around so much with random people when I am at my deepest depression. It's easy to feel cared about in the arms of someone, even if they are a stranger, and the easiest way to get held is to have sex with someone. Maybe I give them what they want (sex), and they give me want I want (warmth in being held). Maybe I'm not a whore when I do that. I still feel like it. I want to do that now, but I told myself not to even though I'm meeting all these people, I'm not going to sleep with them really.