My life is really stupid and comical at times. I told my dad to withdraw me from classes a few minutes ago because I can't get any of my anxiety medication sent to this address and I had spent almost $1000 trying (I tried again last night, if it works I'll have it by the end of this month - but I doubt it'll come). And he was like well we can try other people's addresses. Well. I don't even have the money to try in the first place, but whatever, fine. More debt doesn't matter when it's already so much, $6000 last I checked, so another $1000 trying I guess doesn't matter a whole lot. I don't see why it matters so much in the first place if I go to college or get a job or whatever, I'm 24, just let me rot and realize I'm screwed up and can't deal with people instead of trying to ignore it. It's stupid. I don't even *want* to go to this stupid college here, there is not a single class I signed up for that I'm very interested in and it'll be a lot of work not dropping out of boredom. I don't feel academically challenged by any class and I think my whatever test I take shows that I'm not stupid, they know it more than anything seeing me in high school, etc. I just want something interesting and I'm not going to get that at any college here in CO, at least in MA I had classes that were interesting and that made it worthwhile for me to keep going to college; I didn't really care about getting a degree. Life is stupid. I want to get out of here and do something that means something to me.

I miss Maegan a lot. :( I hope she comes on tonight, it's getting kind of late for her so maybe not. Oh well. :(