In my moody depression and inability to sleep I have been slightly productive (after i gourged myself...). I added a little more to my blog, added ways for people to get in touch with me if they somehow stumble across this site and wanted to talk to me (very unlikely, but I guess it can happen), and I added a few links. I keep acting like this is some public thing that people read, but no one reads it except Maegan. I think Nicole might read it too. She was in a bad mood when I told her about my new journal and didn't want to talk to me, but I told her later to see if she can find it as a game, and I think she's probably found it by now. It's not like it's terribly hard to do and doesn't require any stalking skills. It's stange to think that we (as in people in MA) would talk about stalking all the time and different things we would do online to find out more about someone. It was all kind of creepy, but good in knowing that they were all online people and had online friends and wanted to know more about them in a harmless way. I don't do any of that anymore, because I don't believe in it really, and if someone has something to hide, then they're hiding it for a reason, and if they have something to tell, then conversely, they will tell me (eventually).

Someday I'll have more friends that I can trust and let them read my journal. I forgot to mention, I also changed the title of my blog, removing "the beginning", because I've been here for a month now, so I guess it really isn't the beginning anymore. Just me. So it's just Lent Somnolence.

On a side note (two side notes in one day?), I wish someone would be my baby vampire. I'm getting old in that game and I haven't sired anyone and I've outgrown all of my siblings by a great deal and even own sire. I'm feeling quite the methuselah, I hardly see anyone with more blood than me anymore; I suppose I should help my sire and siblings more and help them aquire some more powers. I feel strange and lonely, even if it is a game, knowing that I have several times more blood than my siblings and my own sire, it just doesn't feel quite right. I'm rambling and I really should sleep, but everything feels hazy and I don't know what to do, sleep doesn't feel right.

No one has emailed me either. Erin has always emailed me each night, I'm feeling a little lonely without her email. No responses to my new ad. Oh, I also revised all my old ads and tried to write more about myself in the hopes that it might make someone interested in me. No responses from the people I wrote to either.

Sad me.